John 21: 1-14
Jesus Appears to 7 Disciples
In Christ's 3rd encounter after his resurrection, Jesus helps his disciples gather fish and meets them for breakfast. The disciples do not ask if he is Jesus, they know he is.
Please help me to be more like Jesus' disciples, especially Simon Peter, who upon hearing your name, jumped into the lake to swim to you. Help me to be as trusting as Simon Peter.
Hebrews 4:7-13
Promised Rest for God's People (cont'd)
"Nothing in all creation can hide from him. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes. This is the God to whom we must explain all that we have done." (13)
There will come a day when we will have to face God and explain our choices. I want to be able to stand before him, proud. I want God to be proud of me - proud of the fact that he was able to use me to help others. I want to be a blessing to others.
Just yesterday, we went to PCRM. I know that this will be our last bridge to "natural child birth", at least as natural as we can have a baby. This time the endevour will be IUI with Clomid, a drug to stimulate superovulation. I do have my doubts. I believe it's because I don't want to put my trust in Science, but rather in God. God, I know that if this is your will, I will be pregnant. However, I will not overstress or even think much about it. This is a worry I will pass on to you.
My heart is very much entrenched in adopting overseas. Even if I were to be pregnant naturally, I still want to adopt another child. I can't help, but feel this is coming from you. This trip to Cambodia and Wilson's trip to Vietnam... all of our experiences, though separate, are meaningful insights to your bigger picture for us. I know you hear my cries and my prayers. I know they will be answered in your time, not mine. I have been impatient most of my life, working as fast as I possible can. I equate myself to being crazy rabbit - a true task master.
Someone once told me that my child is out there, I just have to call his/her name, but at the same token, this child must want to also be mine. So "Child of mine," hear my voice, "It is time to come into this world. Do not be afraid. We will love you as much as Christ loves us."
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