A Confused Doubter, Is This What I am?

John 4: 43-54
Jesus Heals an Official's Son
Jesus asked, 'Must I do miraculous signs and wonders before you people will believe in me?'(48)

Jesus is showing me to not doubt him. We do ask for God to perform miracles, often to confirm in faith. But what would that prove? It would only prove that we have no faith... So God I ask for your mercy and forgiveness every time I have failed you by casting even a shadow of doubt or disappointment when you don't provide me with a "want", for you have provided with all that I need. I pray that you will continue to watch over and nurture Alice as she serves you in Guatamala and that you protect our family from sickness. I especially lift up Uncle Ben and Lily to you as they both recover from their recent heart and hip surgeries. I thank you for letting the surgeries go smoothly and I thank you that my parents will soon be able to rejoice in retirement. I especially thank that you have been able to ward off extreme complications in Wilson's wellness. I have a great many things to be thankful for...

1 Timothy 2:9-15
Instructions about Worship (cont'd)
Christ wants women to be modest in their appearance. A woman who is devoted to God will make themselves attractive by doing good deeds (e.g. Mother Theresa).
I find it interesting that Paul says, ' I do not let women teach men or have authority over them.' (12) He goes on to preach that we are to be quiet listeners because Eve was the one who was tricked by Satan and thus all women are privy to that... leading their man astray.

Am I right in my interpretation of what Paul is saying? If this is correct, does that mean I shouldn't be a teacher, and for that matter, any woman? Hmmm... I know that I am a great listener and am not quick with my words. What I teach is often well thought out and inspired by God... I know that I do not hold authority over my husband, but rather do things out of my love for him. I provide advice and knowledge when asked by anyone, man or woman or even my dog! I hope I am not wrong. I consider my ability to teach, a spiritual gift, one that I can use to glorify God and use to perform my good deeds.

I ask God to give me clarity in this passage of scripture as it definitely contradicts what I feel God is asking me to do. I pray that I will do his will and that this passage from Paul will draw me closer to Christ. Amen.

Just read a great article about this confusingly contradictory passage. http://christianfeminism.wordpress.com/2008/07/04/the-mistranslation-of-1-timothy-211-12/
The article goes back to the Greek translation of the Bible and states theh need for women to be quiet should be accurately translated as being peaceful. In this letter Paul writes, he is trying to point all all the things people are doing wrong. In this instance he is noticing that women are excercising their "authority" over men via sex. There are also women who are teaching false teachings. His advice is directed at them and not at those who are doing God's will.